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I guess this is old new to most of you who read this, but a few months ago I made a decision to quit my job here in Dallas. After a week long trip home at the end of July I got to spend a lot of time with my family, as well as time to get away from work and really think about what I want to do, where I want to be, and who I want to be with.  I came to the conclusion that I needed to either dive head first into life as a permanent Dallasite, or move on to something and somewhere new. Dallas & I have never gotten along very well anyway, I'm not cut-throat enough I guess, so my decision was easy. MOVE ON! I wasn't expecting to actually quit my job the next week though. I feel the need to explain something for anyone who thinks I'm crazy for doing this.
The way my company works is different than some in that the "Project Coordinators" like me, are the main points of contact for our clients. Most of the time they don't need to talk to my bosses unless they have major issues, which hopefully they don't :). I have multiple clients who depend on me & I've formed good working relationships with through my 3 years here. When I returned to my job after Border Town Days my bosses told me that they had just acquired a new "Class A" job and one of my clients, who I've worked with since I started here, was heading it up. One of their "selling points" for getting the job was that he would be working directly with me, and went on to elaborate on how JCI doesn't switch designers mid-project, always the same point of contact, etc.... As they were telling me this I was cringing inwardly. I had already made up my mind to quit, but I didn't want to do it that soon. I've never done really well with sudden change, ideally I like to slowly & gradually ease into it. But, I also didn't want to start this huge project, knowing full well that I would be leaving before it was completed. Plus I know myself well enough to know that I just wouldn't be dedicated enough to be in charge of something like that when mentally I had already basically checked out.  I've never had a good head for business. I understand that "business isn't personal" concept, but I have a hard time putting it into practice. Because it's always personal when there are other souls involved, sometimes that's not a bad thing.
So, long story short, I talked to my bosses on the morning of my 25th birthday, August 9th. I told them about my decision to move on. And I am telling you, I've never felt such a weight lifted. We talked and decided that I would stay on until December, finishing up the existing projects that I have already been working on, then transitioning into more of a support role until the end of the year. SO....now I'm moving! Although it doesn't feel like it, I'm still here & working on finishing up some existing projects so nothing has really changed yet. And I have no idea where or what I'll end up doing. I don't have another job, and I'm still not completely sure where I'll be living (yes, I know all you Nashville family are so sure I'm moving there but I don't remember actually telling anyone that for sure). But I'm actually looking forward to my future for the first time in a while. The unknown is actually 10 times better, and 100 times more exciting than thinking about staying at the same job for the next 5 yrs. So far all I've actually decided on is that I don't want to live in Dallas anymore, but that one decision has changed my attitude so much! All of the sudden it doesn't seem so bad now :) But I know it's only because there's an end in sight. Oh, and I just want to give a shout out to all my Dallas friends who have been the SOLE reason I've even stayed here this long. Without you....I just don't know...I don't want to think about it. Anyway, thanks for humoring me with this incredibly too long ramble. If you've continued reading this far I know you're a true friend :)
Please pray for guidance in decision making for me, as well as patience to be able to finish up here with grace. Love you, Meagan